Climate delinquency (sp?)

I'm currently in the Singapore airport (which already tells you a little about my climate crimes), and they don't have automatic spellcheck - making me realize how much I depend on it. So, watch out.

I, unlike my colleagues, am seriously slacking off. After getting married, and post-grad school, in between jobs, my husband and I decided to take off for awhile and live abroad, something I've wanted to do since graduating college but hadn't found the time. In a way, it's a really, really, really elaborate trip chain. I had to go to Thailand for an EarthRights International board meeting, so we bought round the world tickets and are stopping at several places on the way there and back. We stopped in Spain first, and climbed for a few weeks. We are headed to Thailand now. The board meeting is tomorrow night. I will be teaching at the EarthRights School (a session on biofuels), and then we'll be playing it by ear. We were going to help build homes for refugees along the Thai-Burma border, but that fell through. Who knows, we might continue to slack and climb hard for a while (see if I can maybe get it out of my system, so it's not such a life-ruling distraction?).

Our next major stop is NZ, where we hope to work on an organic farm. We haven't really planned that out, either. One step at a time.

So, I'm feeling pretty guilty about my carbon footprint right now and my lack of positive engagement, but (see previous post on guilt), it's not actually changing my behavior. I'm wrestling with that a bit, trying to figure out how the guilt could be constructive, or maybe how I can constructively learn to deal with it. I'm hoping to take a meditation course in Thailand, which I think would help with many aspects of my life - hopefully help me use emotion when helpful and let it go when it's not...

I've procrastinated posting for a little while, not wanting to admit my sins. Mea Culpa!